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[airgeargaigar]

[Private; hackable]

... things are slowly getting better, or at least they were.  I don't know.  I feel stuck in the middle of nowhere now.

I think I put it well when Erk asked how I am... I'm lonely when I think about Heather... and I think about her a lot.

I never had to work at being happy.  Lately all I can do is be just a little happy, and that's only when I can keep my mind off of Heather.  But that's a little better than before... right?

... and also... without Heather around, sometimes I find myself wanting to... wait, someone might be able to read this!

[Still private; A little harder to hack]
... I have, um... hungers I never used to, and my heart just feels heavier.  I feel more guarded ever since she left.  It's the same feeling as when you're fighting, but you're afraid to fight... you get slow, your body feels a size too small for heart, throwing everything off... and at the same time, I feel like I have more 'life experience' or something, I guess...

... but that doesn't make me happier either.

I guess I feel a little bit older.  ... I wonder if that's how it is...

Comments

[airgeargaigar.livejournal.com]

... Is this growing?

... I don't like it...

[thunder-striker.livejournal.com]

There are many things that make us grow and many different ways we grow.

...Going through hardships is one of them. I wish it were avoidable, but....everyone suffers sometime and has to grow.

[airgeargaigar.livejournal.com]

I still don't like it.

[thunder-striker.livejournal.com]

I don't, either. Sometimes I wish I could run away from all that pain.

[airgeargaigar.livejournal.com]

Really, you too, Fate?

... we can't run away, can we? Like, I mean... even if we run, I don't feel like we can run fast enough...

[thunder-striker.livejournal.com]

We all feel like running away sometime. What's important is whether or not you try: you can't run away and doing so is not good; facing and getting through the pain is more difficult, but it is what allows us to heal and grow.

[airgeargaigar.livejournal.com]

But I still don't like it......

[thunder-striker.livejournal.com]

You probably never will.

But you'll get through over time and we'll all be even more proud of you.

[airgeargaigar.livejournal.com]

[thunder-striker.livejournal.com]

Subaru...

[Hugs]

[airgeargaigar.livejournal.com]

*cling*

[thunder-striker.livejournal.com]

[Pets her hair.]

You'll be able to do it. I have faith in you.

[airgeargaigar.livejournal.com]

*sniffle, slight nuzzle*

Th...thank you...