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Apr. 4th, 2009 09:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
airgeargaigar[Private; hackable]
... things are slowly getting better, or at least they were. I don't know. I feel stuck in the middle of nowhere now.
I think I put it well when Erk asked how I am... I'm lonely when I think about Heather... and I think about her a lot.
I never had to work at being happy. Lately all I can do is be just a little happy, and that's only when I can keep my mind off of Heather. But that's a little better than before... right?
... and also... without Heather around, sometimes I find myself wanting to... wait, someone might be able to read this!
[Still private; A little harder to hack]
... I have, um... hungers I never used to, and my heart just feels heavier. I feel more guarded ever since she left. It's the same feeling as when you're fighting, but you're afraid to fight... you get slow, your body feels a size too small for heart, throwing everything off... and at the same time, I feel like I have more 'life experience' or something, I guess...
... but that doesn't make me happier either.
I guess I feel a little bit older. ... I wonder if that's how it is...
... things are slowly getting better, or at least they were. I don't know. I feel stuck in the middle of nowhere now.
I think I put it well when Erk asked how I am... I'm lonely when I think about Heather... and I think about her a lot.
I never had to work at being happy. Lately all I can do is be just a little happy, and that's only when I can keep my mind off of Heather. But that's a little better than before... right?
... and also... without Heather around, sometimes I find myself wanting to... wait, someone might be able to read this!
[Still private; A little harder to hack]
... I have, um... hungers I never used to, and my heart just feels heavier. I feel more guarded ever since she left. It's the same feeling as when you're fighting, but you're afraid to fight... you get slow, your body feels a size too small for heart, throwing everything off... and at the same time, I feel like I have more 'life experience' or something, I guess...
... but that doesn't make me happier either.
I guess I feel a little bit older. ... I wonder if that's how it is...
