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airgeargaigar ([personal profile] airgeargaigar) wrote2009-04-13 11:12 pm

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Taiiigaaa, how are you?  You should come see me~  I made brownies.

In fact, I made a lot of brownies, so if you want some, just come by knock.  Oh, well, try and do it like maybe in the early evening?  Not too late.  I don't live alone, you know.

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... I'm feeling just a bit better than before even lately, but I'm not sure... am I feeling better, really?  Or am I just getting more used to it...?

I want to say it doesn't matter, but when I think about it, the idea of being less lonely because you're more used to being lonely is sad.

[identity profile] thunder-striker.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 06:24 am (UTC)(link)
It's sad, but being lonely is an unavoidable part of life. It's possible to be happy even if you're lonely, though.

[identity profile] airgeargaigar.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 06:29 am (UTC)(link)
... I just feel... heavier than I used to. It's like I can feel myself carrying my memories, or... maybe...

carrying regrets, and I don't like it. I don't want to just get heavier and heavier. Is that what happens to people?

[identity profile] thunder-striker.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 06:32 am (UTC)(link)
Yes. Memories, regrets, fears, losses...they all grow to weigh heavily on us.

But at the same time, we're capable of becoming stronger so that that weight does not crush us.

[identity profile] thunder-striker.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 06:54 am (UTC)(link)
That means you'll have to try hard.

If there's anyone I know that is capable of trying hard, it's you.

[identity profile] thunder-striker.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 06:59 am (UTC)(link)
Subaru.

Memories--whether good and bad--are both a blessing and a burden. That's how memories are.

But they're what makes us...us. Keep a hold of all your memories, cherish the good ones, and work your hardest to make new good memories.

[identity profile] airgeargaigar.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 07:04 am (UTC)(link)
But how? I feel like like my memories make me sad.

[identity profile] thunder-striker.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 07:06 am (UTC)(link)
They will. They can also make you happy. Eventually, the sad ones will hide away and the happy ones will grow stronger.

[identity profile] airgeargaigar.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 07:09 am (UTC)(link)
I don't miss sad things! I'm sad because I miss... I... *cries*

[identity profile] thunder-striker.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 07:18 am (UTC)(link)
Subaru...

[Quickly steps forward and embraces her.]

[identity profile] airgeargaigar.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 05:34 pm (UTC)(link)
*She cries in Fate's arms*

Don't you get it? I'm sad because I can't forget the things that made me happy...!

1/2

[identity profile] thunder-striker.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 06:02 pm (UTC)(link)
I...Subaru, I would like to think I can relate, to think that I 'get it' because I...

But maybe I can't. It's impossible to truly feel what another feels. Even so...

2/2

[identity profile] thunder-striker.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 06:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Don't you dare to try to forget the things that made you happy.

[identity profile] airgeargaigar.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 07:39 pm (UTC)(link)
I... I won't, but really... I can't anyway...

[identity profile] thunder-striker.livejournal.com 2009-04-14 08:05 pm (UTC)(link)
The memories hurt, but...

Those memories of you and her? The memories of all those things that made you happy? Those memories are what will ensure Heather has never really left.