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[airgeargaigar]

Taiiigaaa, how are you?  You should come see me~  I made brownies.

In fact, I made a lot of brownies, so if you want some, just come by knock.  Oh, well, try and do it like maybe in the early evening?  Not too late.  I don't live alone, you know.

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... I'm feeling just a bit better than before even lately, but I'm not sure... am I feeling better, really?  Or am I just getting more used to it...?

I want to say it doesn't matter, but when I think about it, the idea of being less lonely because you're more used to being lonely is sad.

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[frumpyface.livejournal.com]

I... that's difficult to tell.

[She fidgets back and forth, a bit uncomfortable.]

What are brownies?

[airgeargaigar.livejournal.com]

*she gives some to Erk*

Right here, silly.

Um... what's difficult to tell? Is there something you wanna say to me?

[frumpyface.livejournal.com]

...not really. Just made me think a bit about home.

[Erk is now wearing the fakest smile she ever has.]

[airgeargaigar.livejournal.com]

Erk... is something wrong?

[frumpyface.livejournal.com]

[She contemplates keeping the act up, but all things considered, it wasn't what Subaru needed right now.]

A variant of it, I guess. In retrospect, I just... I wonder if I preferred being alone because I was didn't know what it was like not to be lonely, if that makes sense. I didn't have any friends in the castle. The other students in the castle wouldn't talk to me unless forced. The healers... same thing, really.

[Erk takes the opportunity to take a bite out of one of her brownies.]

It's weird, isn't it. Maybe it was-

[frumpyface.livejournal.com]

[And now she's staring at her brownie and chomping down the rest of it.]

[frumpyface.livejournal.com]

This is great! What's in it?

[thunder-striker.livejournal.com]

It's sad, but being lonely is an unavoidable part of life. It's possible to be happy even if you're lonely, though.

[airgeargaigar.livejournal.com]

... I just feel... heavier than I used to. It's like I can feel myself carrying my memories, or... maybe...

carrying regrets, and I don't like it. I don't want to just get heavier and heavier. Is that what happens to people?

[thunder-striker.livejournal.com]

Yes. Memories, regrets, fears, losses...they all grow to weigh heavily on us.

But at the same time, we're capable of becoming stronger so that that weight does not crush us.

[airgeargaigar.livejournal.com]

... it simpler before...

[thunder-striker.livejournal.com]

That means you'll have to try hard.

If there's anyone I know that is capable of trying hard, it's you.

[for-the-queen.livejournal.com]

Taiga?

[airgeargaigar.livejournal.com]

Taiga's my daughter, but she's so aloof.

[for-the-queen.livejournal.com]

Your what!?

how did you

when did you

what

[airgeargaigar.livejournal.com]

U-um... if it's okay, could you ask one question at a time?

[for-the-queen.livejournal.com]

Your... You actually have a daughter? Did she arrive here from your home world?

[kickspuppies.livejournal.com]

...You made food?

[Totally blasting through Subaru's door at top speed as soon as she hears the news]

Where are they?! I'm so hungry

[airgeargaigar.livejournal.com]

Hehe, here you go~ *Hands Taiga a big pan of brownies* Gimme a sec and I'll get you some milk.

[kickspuppies.livejournal.com]

[Eating them about as fast as they appear] Mmrfflff mmppft?

[airgeargaigar.livejournal.com]

*she brings Taiga some milk and more brownies; keeps on pulling out pans oh god why does she make so much when she bakes at school?*

I'm glad you like them.

[twilightsmile.livejournal.com]

Brownies? I'd certainly like to know the recipe you used. Would you mind jotting it down for me sometime?

[airgeargaigar.livejournal.com]

No problem~ I'll do it right now. *insert written brownie recipe here 'cause I'm lazy*

[twilightsmile.livejournal.com]

Oh, thank you so much! I'll have to try it out sometime.

[airgeargaigar.livejournal.com]

They turn out really good. *Oh, I retroactively have decided LOVE is an ingredient*