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Nanoha's gone...

... I... sort of remember something.  I was really young, and there was this big fire.  I got separated from my sister at some point and... and... I was crying alone in a burning building...

... there was this tall statue of a woman there and... I guess maybe the stone was starting to crumble from the heat or something... I don't really know, but it started falling down towards me and... then everything goes blank.  Maybe I lost consciousness?  It couldn't have hit me though... there's no way I could've lived if it fell on me.  Have I just not remembered yet?  Or can I not remember?  Maybe it's trauma...

... the next thing I remember is waking up in a hospital the next day.  I was okay really, and... and so was my sister... and all I remember was that I knew I was saved by someone in the TSAB... Takamachi Nanoha.

... I don't know why, but something in me changed then.  She became my hero... I wanted to be just like her...

... *sniffle* I shouldn't be sad... it's not like she's dead.  Heroes never die... and she's gone home... where she can keep protecting people...

... I think I kind of understand how Agrias feels now, maybe.  I mean, I don't remember anything I really need to be doing back home right now, but... are there people I should be protecting elsewhere?  ... yes.... no...

... maybe?

... it's not like someone else probably  isn't doing my job my for me.  I do meaningful things here, don't I?  ... I work at a school... isn't that good...?

Everyone, thank you for the gifts.  I'm sorry I don't sound more grateful right now, I am...

... I just have some stuff on my mind...

((2% on Takamachi Nanoha and the fire when she was a child; 3% remaining))

Date: 2009-01-19 08:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
...that's how a lot of us feel, Subaru. Or at least, I can echo the sentiment.

Date: 2009-01-19 08:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

*on bed, cuddling her puppy, who seems sympathetic and whimpers for her*

Date: 2009-01-19 08:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Do you just want to be left alone, then?

Date: 2009-01-19 08:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
*she sits down next to her, but doesn't say anything else*

Date: 2009-01-19 08:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
... *sniffle* what were you talking about before...?

Date: 2009-01-19 09:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Nothing important, Subaru. Just tell me if there's something I can do?

Date: 2009-01-19 09:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
... not really... sorry... *hug*

Date: 2009-01-19 09:22 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
*after a long pause of thinking, she cautiously put her hand down and rubbed the back of her neck*

Date: 2009-01-19 09:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
*gets tears on Erk's clothes, cryyyy*

Date: 2009-01-19 09:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
...sorry, Subaru.

Date: 2009-01-19 09:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Um...hun, you gonna be okay?

Date: 2009-01-19 09:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
H-Hey, c'mon...

Everything'll be okay. She just went home.

Date: 2009-01-19 10:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Yeah, I know...

*Wipes Subaru's face with her scarf*

Anything I can do?

Date: 2009-01-19 10:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
How about we go out to eat in a little bit?

And I'll spend the night with you, too. I don't want you feeling all lonely and mopey all night long.

Date: 2009-01-19 10:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
*sniffle* Sure, thank you...

Date: 2009-01-19 10:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
You'll get all the ice cream you can eat~



Show me a smile!

Date: 2009-01-19 11:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
See! Knew you couldn't stay all mopey for long.

*Kisses...but then goes back to tickling furiously*

Date: 2009-01-19 11:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
*short kiss, flails more* Aaah... HAHAHAH... ehheheheHeather...!

Date: 2009-01-19 11:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
You do a lot of good, Subaru.

Both Nanoha and I are proud of you.

Date: 2009-01-20 01:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
*hugs her* You don't have to hold back, you know...

Date: 2009-01-20 01:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

*Tears up*

I am okay. I need to be...strong. For Vivio's sake, for Nanoha's sake, and everyone else's.

Date: 2009-01-20 01:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

... if you say ...

No... you may not know this, but... I remembered something. Nanoha was like my hero... I remember something... I remember wanting to be just like her...

Date: 2009-01-20 01:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
... if she were here, she'd be here for you... so let me be here for her... no one else is watching...

Date: 2009-01-20 01:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Subaru, I...

*Hugs her tightly and cries into the girl's hair*

Th-thank you...

Date: 2009-01-20 01:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
*She hugs Fate back and cries softly with her*

Date: 2009-01-20 03:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Subaru... I'm certain you have nothing to fear. You will see Lady Nanoha again.

Date: 2009-01-20 03:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Either she will return, or you will. Or perhaps we will find a way to escape this place together. But you will have a reunion. That much, I can swear to you.

Date: 2009-01-20 03:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
But... everyone always... leaves alone...

... and when I think about it like that... I don't wanna leave...

Date: 2009-01-20 03:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
...In that case, I am sure you won't. Lady Nanoha will return here someday, I am sure of it. Have faith.

Date: 2009-01-20 04:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
You don't have to answer this, but... umm...

... do you want to go home? I mean... if you had to do it the way it always seems to happen around here?

Date: 2009-01-20 04:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

I have no choice in the matter, Subaru. A war rages in my homeland, and to abandon my charge would be to condemn my people to further suffering. My own feelings have no bearing.

Date: 2009-01-20 04:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
... wow...

... you're really something.

... is it had to be like that?

Date: 2009-01-20 04:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I cannot say. I swore to uphold a duty, come what may. Breaking that vow is not an option.

Date: 2009-01-20 04:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
... you can't say?

Come on. You mean you don't know if it's hard or not...?

Date: 2009-01-20 04:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I'm not saying you're doing things the wrong way, but ... why do you do it? How?

Date: 2009-01-20 04:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
It was you and the others who helped me, you know. As you said... Worrying about it won't accomplish anything. We couldn't leave here any faster even if we wanted to, so there's no point in feeling as if you're to blame.


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